I'm so tired of being here suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have
all of me
You used to captivate me
by your resonating life
now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along.....


I am bleeding now. I hear the blood dripping on the cold linoleum beneath me. My eyes drift closed. His face is there. He haunts me even in death. One more cut and all is gone.

Love.
Pain.
Happiness.
And Adam Copeland.

I bleed for him. I only wanted to live for him but death heals the pain of nothing. Nothing. That is all I was to him. Nothing. He use to say he loved me. He told me I was the only one. The only one. Then why was he with her.

Lita.

Drip. Drip. Drip. The blood falls to the floor. Cold. I feel so cold. Darkness is around me. Darkness....and Adam's face. So beautiful. Even in my death, his face is pure beauty and I know I shall never see an angel in heaven or hell that compares to his beauty. I see the forest green color of his eyes. The long golden blond hair. Even as my vision blurs it stuns me with it's silkiness. I feel his touch. Hear his voice filling my heart and soul. He is calling my name. Pulling me back to him. Back to nothing. Back to the pain. He sounds so sad. So empty. His arms circle around me. Holding me. Rocking me. I hear him cry..... as if he truly did love me.

Why?

I hear his voice echo around me. The one word that I have asked over and over these past few months. My life is almost over now. No more pain. No more sadness. No more Adam. For me it's over. I feel the last of the blood flowing from my veins. I hear him crying. I feel our bodies rocking in that slow rhythm. His tears are touching my face.

I love you.

The last words I hear before darkness descends over me. My eyes open to see him..... and then there is nothing.

Your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along......