Jeff lay on the uncomfortable hotel bed, trying his best to get in a position that would soothe his aching back and knowing full well that even if he did, his head would still be in a thousand other places and that he would still be uncomfortable. Idly, in an attempt to take his mind off everything, he located the ever present hotel porn watched the supposed erotic drama with an increasing sense of incredulity.

This was just wrong. He wasn't supposed to be here, alone and bored out of his brain. He wasn't supposed to be rubbing soothing creams on his back to try and take away the dull ache. Chris was always the one that did that. But he wasn't here. The others had said that the separation would get easier to bear, but it wasn't getting any easier. Each day alone was like a private purgatory, and no one else understood: for the first few weeks everyone had been tetchy and melancholy, but by now they had adjusted and were getting on with their lives. It was easier for them, they'd had time apart before and were used to it; to the others, long distance relationships were just a part of wrestling, be it the wife at home or the lover in another company. But Jeff, he felt like no one understood, because this was the first time he'd ever been separated from Chris for any period of time. And it hurt. It hurt in a way that he'd never thought it would. And it wasn't getting any easier.

Jeff closed his eyes to block out the naked flesh writhing on the television in front of him. Even the sight of a man and woman having sex reminded him of what he was missing. He thought of Chris: what would he be doing now, was he missing Jeff, was he feeling the same way as his young lover?

The last time they were together had been more special than any day before, than anything they had ever experienced together. They had enjoyed a weekend break in California, but it could have been anywhere in the world because they had never left their hotel room. It had been so intense and beautiful even the thought of it still held the power to take Jeff's breath away. It was such a powerful sensation Jeff needed to share it with his lover one more time, right now. With a trembling hand he picked up his cell phone. And at the same time it started ringing, the five letters on the display telling Jeff everything he needed.

"Chris?" There was a tremor of longing and loneliness in his voice.

"Baby, I missed you, I just needed to hear your voice." Jeff could almost hear Chris smiling down the line.

"I missed you too Chris. I was just thinking about us."

There was an audible gasp from the phone. "About California?"

"Yeah." A tear of joy and sadness slipped down Jeff's cheek, adorning it like a jewel. "I miss you Chris. It's not getting easier."

"I know baby…. I know." Chris could hear the tears clearly now in Jeff's voice. "Don't cry angel, we'll be together soon. You know I love you, just tell me what I can do to make it better."

"Give me something to fight for," Jeff murmured. "Give me life."

"All you have to do is carry on for a little while, and then we'll be together. Wait for me and I'll be there in no time. I'll fly to you soon Jeff, I promise I will." Jeff could almost feel Chris reach out and touch him, could almost feel his hot breath on his neck. It helped, almost.

"How can you stay so strong Chris? Doesn't it hurt?"

Chris sighed. "Jeffie, you know it hurts, but I stay strong, because you keep me strong. I feel you Jeff, I feel you inside me."

"I'm there. You know I am."

"We'll be together Jeff, always we will. Tell me why Jeff." On the other end of the phone Chris closed his eyes and reached out to touch his lover's heart.

"Destiny. We're destined. Tell me we are Chris."

"I promise we are baby."

Jeff hung up, his heart still aching but more full than ever. He put himself in destiny's hands. He trusted that goddess to keep him and Chris together. I lie awake
I've gone to ground
I'm watching porn
In my hotel dressing gown
Now I dream of you
But I still believe
There's only enough for one in this
Lonely hotel suite
The journey's long
And it feels so bad
I'm thinking back to the last day we had.
Old moon fades into the new
Soon I know I'll be back with you
I'm nearly with you
I'm nearly with you
When I'm weak I draw strength from you
And when you're lost I know how to change your mood
And when I'm down you breathe life over me
Even though we're miles apart we are each other's destiny
On a clear day
I'll fly home to you
I'm bending time getting back to you
Old moon fades into the new
Soon I know I'll be back with you
I'm nearly with you
I'm nearly with you
When I'm weak I draw strength from you
And when you're lost I know how to change your mood
And when I'm down you breathe life over me
Even though we're miles apart we are each other's destiny
When I'm weak I draw strength from you
And when you're lost I know how to change your mood
And when I'm down you breathe life over me
Even though we're miles apart we are each other's destiny
I'll fly, I'll fly home
I'll fly home and I'll fly home