"Brian what is wrong with you?" I asked my older lover, he's change alot over the past years.

"You should know, you're the one who's the fucking slut here!" He yelled out at me, I can't believe he said that to me.

"Me? How am I the slut? You're the one fucking every single man on the planet and you're not even single!" I yelled back not knowing I could even yell that loud.

"Yeah am I fucking every man on this planet, because they actually know how to work it in bed." As soon as he said that it felt that everything had just stopped, it had just felt like I had been slapped in the face. "Get the fuck out of my house!" I scream throwing a lamp at Brian hitting him on his leg. I feel the hot tears streaming down my face, I can't believe it he made me cry. No man has ever made me cry. He tried to say something but I screamed at him and threw a dictionary at him. As soon as he left my house I fell to the floor crying. "Why God, why did he just say that." I sobbed, He knows I love him like crazy, I just can't take the constant arguing and fighting. As I walk to my room and I see our cat Essence, she reminds of Brian I start crying again. As soon as I make it to the room the phone starts to ring. I let the answering machine pick it up.

"Shanny, it's me Jeff. I know your there.. Ahh but anyway I just saw Kendrick making out with Benoit. Please call me back Shannon I need to tell you every detail." As soon as I heard his say that, I felt my heart just break. I quickly grabbed my cell phone and called Jeff back.

"Yeah," He says, can you believe the way he answers his phone? "Shannon, you need to leave Kendrick and get back with Shane. He has more respect for you and he doesn't treat you like crap."

"Jeffy I know but I can't leave him, I love him too much. Just tell me what you saw." I chocked out, looking at the picture me and Brian took last year at the beach. After Jeff had told me everything I was in a state of denial.

"Shanny, are you alright baby?" Jeff asked, I didn't answer- I couldn't answer, I was afraid that I might curse out Jeff instead of Brian.

"Jeff," I finally managed to say trying to stay calm. "I want you here, helping me pack. I'm getting my ass out of here. Shannon I'll be there in 5 minutes. Don't start without me." He drawled, I can hear the joy in his voice. I hung up the phone and lied on the bed, trying to figure out what I did wrong. I found myself toying with my engagement ring, the man who has claimed to love me would never hurt me like this. I took it off and threw it in the trash. As soon as the ring hit the bottom of the trash, Jeff walked in. I knew I should have never given him that damn spare key. But anyway I could tell he was on cloud nine. Ever since I met Brian he's wanted us to break up. I see why they say love is blind. "Shann, give me your bags, so I can pack 'em." Jeff said. "Fine, just let me--" I was interrupted by the phone.

"Hello."

"Shannon, it's me Brian."

"I know who it is, ass face!"

"I guess I deserved that..."

After Brian said that, there was an awkward silence on the phone until I broke it. "Well, you called and I'm assuming you have got something to say."

"Yeah, I dunno how to say this but there two words are the hardest words I've ever said--" I had to cut the bastard off.

"Not tonight?"

"Shannon, would you just shut up for a second and let me talk?! DAMN! But anyway I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you. And I promise I won't do it again. Just please don't leave, we can make this relationship work. I know we can!"

My reply took along time. Well, because I had to tell Jeff to shut his trap and because he began to sing Lumidee's 'Never Leave'.

"Shannon, what do you say?" He asked with a pleading tone in his voice.

"I'll give it a shot. But if you pull another stunt like that, I swear to God I will shoot your dick off. Understand?"

"Ohhhh, yeah I do."

We end up hanging up the phone and I couldn't wait to Jeff the good news. "Jeffy! Stop packing! Me and Brian and back together." I announced grabbing Jeff into a huge bear hug.

"Christ on a bike. Ya know Shan; you are a very confused little boy. And I think you don't know what you want. But whatever floats your boat." He sighs, he's being a complete ass- munch right now. BUT HEY, I'M HAPPY!!!!

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