As always, song lyrics denoted by ~.

~Clock watching and lounge listening
Waiting for my colors to shine
Swimming pools of broken fools
Whose love is deeper, whose is true
I will contend my love for you
Eventually~

Have you ever looked at something every single day of your life and all of a sudden you realize it's the most beautiful thing you've ever laid eyes on?
Have you ever done that with a person?
I have.
Every day for the last ten years.
But I ain't ever said anything.
He belonged to them. He shoulda had "Property of Matt and Jeff Hardy" tattooed on his perfect little ass.
He loved both of them more than anything.
Unfortunately, they loved each other more than life itself.
I was the one that took him to see Matt one last time before he died.
I was the one that held him at the funeral.
I was the one he called when he found Jeff, closer to dead than livin', sprawled across Matt's grave.
I was the one he cried to, clung to, bitched to.
They were the ones he loved.
He was the one they loved.
How do I tell him I love him too?

~Serenade my love
Is all I can do
And I know yes, I know it's wrong to be
So vigilant and so far gone
It goes on and on and on~

I don't remember when I took my first steps or spoke my first words. I don't remember my first day of school, my first bike. Hell sometimes I can't even remember my first match.
But I remember the first time I saw Shannon.
And I remember the first time I realized I was in love.
Of course by then it was too late.
See, I realized I was in love with him when I walked in on him and Jeff, buck naked, with Shannon on his knees.
In that moment, I knew I was in love.
And I knew I'd never have him.

~Talking to myself
I won't be like the rest
No one sees what lives inside me
I can't even taste it myself
Eventually~

I wanted to save him, protect him, take him away from the…insanity that we knew as Hardy.
As the years went by and he bounced from one to the other, even sitting back at times and watching as the two of them gave in to the immoral sin of loving each other, I wanted to save him.
When he was Jeff's flavor of the week, I wanted to save him.
When he was the object of Matt's desire for the summer, I wanted to save him.
When he caught Evan's eye, I wanted to save him.
When he denied the attention that Matt gave Jeff, and Jeff returned, I wanted to save him.
When he was layin' in that hospital bed and the doctors told him he might never walk again, I wanted to save him.
When he sat there, holding Matt's hand as he took his last breath, and he punched Jeff's lights out, I wanted to save him.
And when he tried to save Jeff, and he couldn't - I did save him.

~Serenade my love
Is all I can do
And I know yes, I know it's wrong to be
So vigilant and so far gone
It goes on and on and on~

Now I'm standin' here in his kitchen, watchin' him out the window as he tries to run around the yard, playing with the dogs, I know that the time has come.
I can't deny it any longer.
There's nobody left to stand in my way.
Nothing left between us.
Nothing but time and space and an emptiness that we both need to fill.
Matt's gone. Jeff's gone. His career is gone.
But I'm still here, and so is he.

~My love is as fierce as the seas
That swell and swallow the space between
Him and me
Eventually~

He sees me and he waves, a smile crossing his face.
The first real, sincere smile I've seen on him in months.
I want to tell him everything.
I want to open my mouth and let my heart pour out for him, let him know how long I've wanted him, how much I need him, how long I'll love him.
I'm scared.
I'm nervous as hell.
I'm in love.
I wanna shout it from the rooftops, sing it from the top of my lungs, write it on a billboard.
I want to hold him, kiss him, fuck him, love him.
I want it all.

~Serenade my love
Is all I can do
And I know yes, I know it's wrong to be
So vigilant and so far gone
It goes on and on and on~

And I'm about to get it.
I hope he don't laugh at me.
I hope he don't get mad.
I hope he don't run away, cuz he's all I got left now.

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