Jensen usually couldn't stay in bed when he was awake, and that wasn't a problem. Jared was always awake hours before him anyway, except for today, when Jared had passed out in the middle of the day. Jensen didn't feel like leaving him yet, not after almost two fucking months of living off of nothing but late night phone calls that only led to phone sex if he could bribe Steve to take Chris away. At least when it was his turn to room with Steve, Steve didn't give him shit about having to hide in Chris's room for a few hours, but when he was stuck with one of the other guys in the band, there wasn't even any hope.
Jared snuggled closer and turned into Jensen's chest, scrunching up his nose when his hair fell over his face. When Jensen reached over to brush it back, Jared's eyes blinked open.
"I don't like it when you wake up before me." Jared frowned, his shoulders tensing as he looked up at Jensen.
"Sorry. I don't usually take naps in the middle of the day. I only dozed off a little, but I didn't wanna wake you up." Jensen let the hand in Jared's hair drift down over Jared's cheek. One day, he was going to make up for being such a fucking idiot and trying to leave him.
"Alexis woke me up at six this morning to drive to Houston. It's her fault." Jared pouted and relaxed against him again.
"S'okay. Figured I should let you rest before round two." Jensen pulled Jared up off his chest to kiss him. "And I'd really like to take some of the credit for wearing you out."
"Yeah. The blowjob in the shower after all the sex might've done me in, which technically, would make this round three."
"So you're up for round three, then?" Jensen pulled Jared's lips back to his to deepen the kiss, letting his hand travel up Jared's leg. They had a lot of sex to make up, but Jared pulled back from the kiss before he could even get worked up.
"Wait. Just give me a second," Jared said, shaking his head a little.
"What's wrong?" Jensen moved the hand on Jared's leg back up to his neck. Jared hadn't stopped him once since spring break.
"Nothing. I just." Jared looked down and bit his lip.
"Jared?" Fuck. Somehow he'd screwed up. Or maybe Jared wanted to talk instead of just having sex, which Jensen could do. He'd promised to talk about things when they got back together. If he'd fucked something up and Jared needed him to talk, he'd try, though it was a hell of a lot easier on the phone with a few hundred miles between them.
"Don't freak out. It's not bad. Well, okay, I don't think you'll think it's bad, and if you do then that's okay. We can just not do it because really everything we do now is good anyway."
Jensen couldn't be blamed for cracking a smile. Jared wasn't mad, and he wanted something new. Of course, now he had to try to keep his mind from going over all the things they could try before he found out what Jared actually wanted.
"Never mind. You don't deserve to get laid." Jared lowered his head, hiding his face in Jensen's neck.
"Hey! No. I'm not laughing at you. You're just so cute when you ramble like that. I've missed it." Not that there was anything he hadn't missed about Jared all summer. Chris only spent all summer mocking him about it.
"Uh huh," Jared mumbled into his neck.
"Come on, what do you wanna do? I really doubt I'm gonna say no." Jensen leaned down to kiss his chest again. It was Jared. New and kinky to Jared had to be something Jensen was dying to do anyway.
"But you've never brought it up."
"Jared, I'm still not sure exactly what we're talking about. But if I didn't bring it up, I just didn't want to push you. You've always told me when you're ready to try something new." Hell, Jared would probably freak out if Jensen asked to be tied up or pulled out even half of his sex toy collection.
"There's not a lot we haven't done."
"There's actually quite a few things we haven't done." Somewhere, Jensen had a list of all the things he wanted to do with Jared if he didn't think Jared would run away. "So the question is, what do you want to do now?"
"I've just been wondering….what it's like for you….when we have sex." Jared mumbled the words, but he heard every single fucking thing.
"Really? That's….that's what you want to try? You're sure?" Jensen sat up. He needed a little distance, or he was going to get too fucking excited, and Jared was going to notice and think he couldn't back out.
"Um, well, I'm sure I want to try?" Jared looked up, and he might be nervous, but he had that same determined look he'd had when they'd had sex the first time.
"Okay." Jensen stroked a hand down his chest, trying to get him to relax. "How about we start moving there, and if you want to stop or slow down, you let me know? But you have to promise to let me know."
"Dude, I'd never let you do something I didn't want. I've told you that." Jared rolled his eyes just like he always did when Jensen pointed out that Jared was younger, but the last thing Jensen wanted to do was give Jeff a reason to say he was taking advantage.
"I know, I know. But this is different. I mean, have you tried anything yourself?" Hell, he'd tried it out with three different sex toys that Pete sent him before he'd even thought of letting Justin get there.
"What? Tried what myself?"
"Dude, we spent half the summer living off phone sex. You know I've fingered myself. It makes you crazy when I tell you about it. Though if you've been doing this and not telling me, that's really not fair because that is something I want to know about." Of course, he'd thought Jared would freak out the first time he'd brought it up. It had taken him half an hour just to get Jared into phone sex the first time.
"Oh. Um, I haven't. I guess I wanted you to do it. I don't even know what I'm doing," Jared said, his breath catching as Jensen moved to kiss up his neck.
"But you want to try?" Jensen whispered, sucking Jared's earlobe into his mouth. They probably wouldn't get all the way today. He'd chickened out the first two times he'd tried with Justin, but it would help if he made it good enough that Jared wasn't freaked out. If he went too far the first time, Jared would probably never let him try again.
"Yeah."
"We're gonna go slow, okay?" Jensen kissed from his ear over his jaw and then pulled back to met his eyes. He had to know Jared was sure about this. "I'm not gonna hurt you. If you're too tense, we'll just try again later."
He waited for Jared's nod before he kissed him again. Jared was still tense as Jensen nibbled down his neck and kissed over his chest, but he started to relax as Jensen kissed down his hip. Jared moaned and clutched at his shoulder as he licked up the length of Jared's cock and then sucked it into his mouth. If this didn't work out, it wasn't like he couldn't be happy with Jared coming in his mouth while he had a finger inside. At least that would leave Jared wanting to try again.
Jared moaned again as Jensen moved lower, licking down and taking Jared's balls into his mouth for a moment before licking back up Jared's cock. He slid his finger inside his mouth, brushing over Jared's cock as he did.
Jensen let his finger slip lower, but when he pressed against Jared's opening, Jared's whole body tensed. Jared tried to go with it anyway, but Jensen pulled back. He wasn't going to fucking traumatize Jared because Jared was being stubborn. So he climbed back up Jared's body to suck at the hickey he'd left on Jared's neck a few hours earlier. Jared didn't stop him, but Jensen could still feel the tension in Jared's body.
"Not yet. We're going slow, remember? Turn over for me." Jensen kissed his neck and slid off his body so he could turn.
"But I-" Jared said. Jensen interrupted before he could finish, kissing him until he gave up trying to talk.
"I know. I want to see your face, too. But I'm still getting you ready." Jensen kissed him again and eased him onto his stomach. "And I gotta get you to relax a little more if you want this to work."
"It doesn't take you this long." Jared looked back at him, frowning. That was just wrong. This wasn't a situation for frowning, no matter how it ended up.
"It's harder the first time when you don't know what it's going to feel like. I can relax because I know I love how you feel inside me. But the first time, it's just gonna take a little longer." Jensen kissed the back of his neck and started kneading away the tension in his shoulders.
"Sorry. I'm trying to relax. I am."
"S'okay. We're gonna have fun getting there." Jensen ran a hand through Jared's hair and smiled. When Jared finally smiled back, Jensen leaned down to kiss down his back, pausing every few inches to suck a new hickey into the skin.
"What're you doing?" Jared asked as Jensen's lips reached the small of his back.
"Showing you one of those other things we haven't done yet. If you don't like it, just tell me to stop."
"Okay." Jared nodded into his pillow, and Jensen kissed the small of his back again before spreading him open.
Jensen hadn't done this for a lot of people, just Pete in the beginning when he thought Pete was the best thing that ever happened to him and Justin once or twice. But Jared was more to him than either of them, and there was a hell of a lot more chance that Jared would relax under his tongue than his fingers.
"Fuck." Jared jumped when Jensen licked over him.
"Is that a good reaction or a bad one?" Jensen asked before he leaned back down and licked over him again. Jared's moan was a good enough answer, but he'd tensed up again and, Jensen could guess why. "Relax. You just showered. It's fine." Really, Jensen had rules about doing this.
Jared nodded into the pillow, bucking against the bed as Jensen licked into him. Jared gave in, relaxing under his touch and breathing hard. He didn't even flinch when Jensen replaced his tongue with a finger.
"Fuck. Jensen. Oh, god." Jared pushed back against his finger, trying for more, and Jensen rubbed over the same place again until Jared was sweating and moaning.
"That's what it feels like, baby. Fuck, you're so hot like this." He wasn't going to give up getting fucked, but damn, having Jared desperate and fucking himself on Jensen's fingers was damn hot, too, and he wanted to see it on Jared's face.
Jensen pushed against his hip until he turned onto his back. Jared watched him reach for the lube, but he didn't object as Jensen coated his fingers.
When he pressed two lubed fingers back inside, Jared gasped, but he relaxed easy when Jensen licked over his cock. But before he could take Jared's cock into his mouth, Jared started to pull on his arm.
"I'm good. Really. I want you." Jared pulled him back up and fucking reached for a condom before Jensen had even processed that this was actually happening. Jared wasn't going to back out. Jared was putting the condom on him and, fuck, slicking lube over his cock.
Jensen nodded, trying not to lose it as he kneeled behind Jared. He watched Jared's face as he pushed inside. Fuck. He hadn't done this in almost a year, and it was going to take all his fucking willpower not to lose control before Jared was ready-and Jared wasn't ready. He was gripping the sheets and holding his breath.
"Fuck. You feel so good. You gotta breathe, though. Take a deep breath," Jensen said, and Jared nodded before breathing in and out in long deep breaths. "Okay?"
Jensen pushed in a little more as Jared exhaled. Some of the tension had left his face, but he wasn't back to enjoying it.
"Yeah. It's just…"
"Weird? Yeah, give it a second. It'll get better."
"Yeah. Just keep going." Jared shifted his hips up, pushing Jensen all the way in. Fuck. It was really fucking hard not to move, but there was no fucking way Jared didn't need some time to get used to this.
"Just try to move a little when you're ready." Jensen leaned down to kiss anywhere he could reach on Jared's neck, trying to make him relax. Just as he was getting to where he'd left a hickey, Jared shifted his hips, letting Jensen slip out a little before he pushed back in. Fuck. It was too fucking amazing for him to stay in control.
"Okay, okay. Move. I'm okay," Jared gasped, still short of breath.
Jensen nodded and pulled back, adjusting his angle, trying to get somewhere that would get Jared back to crazy and desperate and begging.
"Yes. There. Right there." Jared moaned and pushed back, fucking himself harder on Jensen's cock. That was it. Jensen adjusted Jared's legs to fit around his waist and pressed against Jared's chest as he thrust. Jared moaned and pushed back with each thrust, rubbing his cock against Jensen's stomach again and again until he came hot and messy between them.
"Fuck, Jared. So amazing. So fucking amazing." Jensen gave up control, pushing into the tight heat until he came and fell against Jared's chest.
"Okay?" He had to ask, even though Jared was already stroking down his back like he always did when Jensen rode him.
"Yeah, yeah. Way better than okay." Jared's lips brushed over his forehead.
"Fucking awesome?" He knew the answer, but maybe he needed to check.
"Yeah." Jared chuckled. "Really fucking awesome."
Jensen nodded, sighing against Jared's chest. He really needed a nap before round four.
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